Being sick the week after a cutback week makes you feel deflated. You feel like you should be doing more mileage, and getting out there to run when in fact this is not the case. Yesterday I visited the doctor to get a prescription for an antibiotic that will help sinus infections. Snot has filled my head and is leaking into my lungs. It came just in time to help me write my college applications!
I started running today and instantly felt light headed, dizzy, and ready to fall over. Every little hill felt huge. Once I got to the top I felt like all my energy had just been expended. My breathing became sharp but unable to take a full breath of air I would just end up feeling asthmatic.
I ran a mile. A single mile. When I came to halt I was swaying back and forth. I looked like a tower in an earthquake. I got some good advice right then from my mom. I could keep going and attempt to finish the long run, or I could stop then and not set my body and immune system up to be weakened. I decided that it was better if I stop today so that I may run strong again sooner. Let's hope I made a smart decision.
Winter break has started, and with it comes a sense of relief -- half way done with senior year. However, at the same time it brings nostalgia. It makes me remember all the good times that I have had at school that I will miss. I started attending Poughkeepsie Day School (PDS) in seventh grade. My parents wanted to help hone my creative abilities so they switched me out of the public school system. I reluctantly left my public school, with me I brought the criticism of my friends who stayed behind. It hurt to be considered so different from them, but I soon pushed those thoughts away as I began to meet new people at school.
I made my first friends through music. Able to pick up a guitar and strum a few chords, I could hang out with them at lunch and play some tunes. Neutral Milk Hotel's song
In the Aeroplane Over the Sea is the song we played, over and over. Being only four chords it didn't keep us interested all that long, but those four chords helped me make friendships that will span my entire life.
As school progressed and I entered high school I had come to know everyone in the middle and high school (about 150 kids in total). I began to enjoy learning for the sake of learning and I was exploring different clouds of thought and viewpoints. The athletics were nothing special though. It is expected being a liberal arts school. I started the school's varsity cross-country team when I was in seventh grade. Our team never got higher than tenth out of twelve schools. We struggled to get wins, but we never struggled to find happiness. Unlike the teams who were winning but had coaches screaming at them, our team coach gave us strong encouragement and never yelled. Even though we didn't win we were always the ones walking back to our team van with smiles.
This team has taught me the joy of doing something just for the sake of doing it. It taught me the end result is only a small part of something, and that the journey is often the memorable and honorable part. If you do something you love, you are going to be great at it. I didn't care if we won or lost I just enjoyed spending time with the team and running. I progressively ran more and more as I entered high school. Not to win, just to do it because I loved it.
In my junior year I won the first race of the season. I won the second, the third, the fourth. I kept winning. I couldn't believe it. I wasn't even doing interval training. I was just running because it brought me peace. In most of the photos taken of me during cross-country I am smiling, or waving at the camera, trying to share how I felt. Throughout that season, even though we were doing well, we never lost sight of who we were when we started. Our coach still never yelled, we didn't brag, and we always got on our van with smiles.

This past season our team got out strong. As a team we won about five meets including the championship. I won every single one of those meets (not to toot my own horn or anything). I don't have a concrete thing I did to prepare. I didn't have a rock-solid training plan to attribute my wins to. I just got out there and ran with a few things in my mind: 1) What a beautiful day! I wonder if running makes everyone this happy. 2) Ignore that pain, there is only two more miles...one more mile...a half of a mile... 3) How could I ever think about giving up when my team is working so hard. 4) I wonder if these shorts look O.K. for the camera around the bend.
Our team started from nothing, and rose to victory, all on a feel-good spirit. I am hoping that they continue the winning streak next year when I am gone. The school keeps e-mailing me, asking for me to return my singlet. I think to myself no way, this is my memento.
One thing I would like to see improved next year is increased participation of females. Our inaugural team had around five girls and three boys. This year we didn't even have enough girls at any of the meets to qualify (although one of the girls who did race got first in the championship). I believe it is because it can be intimidating for girls to come out and run with the team which is male dominated. I have thought long and hard about how to fix this. The team has always been accepting of everyone, but they still feel like they need to have a friend there in order to run with the team. However, one of the girls on the team (the one who won) has set a great example and will hopefully be a beacon of hope for attracting more girls to the team next year.
If anyone has any thoughts on how to garner interest in a cross-country team please leave a comment below. Of course, you can also leave any questions, comments, or concerns you may have! Hope everyone else's week hasn't been so filled with tissues and snot!